I can feel the growth, I can see the improvements, I have tasted little successes. This could only mean that I’m moving in the right direction. But embracing this change is not easy. Like it or not, I’ve been knocked down so many times throughout. I AM CONSTANTLY PUT TO THE TEST and sadly, I know I’ve failed to a certain extent each time.
The most current situation would be hubby’s drunkenness the other night. Should I be furious or should I accept it’s occasional fun? Should I be ashamed or should I simply laugh along? Should I be silent or should I make my displeasure heard? Which is the right option?
I’d been furious. I’ve felt ashamed. I’ve made my displeasure felt and I’ve also made myself HEARD!!! These are my choices … right or wrong, there’s no regret. If it’s right, at least the GUILTY has heard. If it’s wrong, I’m the WISER! There’s lesson to be learnt for all.
In our individualistic quest to be the BETTER PERSON, it’s imperative that we fall over and over again, as we pick ourselves up again and again … learning life’s lessons as we piece it all together again into an improved condition … that is, if any one of us is willing to learn, improvise or change.
I’ve no regret to my reaction. I know my approach is more sedated now in comparison to my past. The fury that was once accompanied by flying objects is gone … the self-consciousness is less disconcerting and the cold silence that last weeks is but a mere 24-hour isolation. No one would have heard me then, not even the GUILTY but today, I am effectively heard.
Forgive my ludicrous nonsensical exposition ... I’M STILL LEARNING MY WAYS … a whole lot of learning to do!
There are no such thing called a failure, only delayed successes.
Have faith in yourself, just like we have faith in you.
By recognising your weakness and working on it, you are already doing alot better than most people out there.
Jia you! ^_^