I have been weak these past months ... stressed out ... in desperation to fit in at my new workplace ... in desperation to be the superwoman, chasing perfection ... I feel so drained!
In the end, the harder I tried to accomplish proficiency ... the more mistakes I make ... then more and more of my confidence just goes down the drain. The fact that I am in an organisation where fault-finding missions take precedence did not help my situation at all and of course, there's the politics I've mentioned earlier. Sudden organisational changes placed me under 2 different new bosses within 3 months ... is this fair?Many times, I wanted to call it quits! Yet why am I still hanging on to this job? I am not happy ... I don't find any job enrichment ... it's a blatant waste of my time!
Shingo-T gave me a thought-provoking comment recently but I still remain undecided of my fate on this cross-road. He said:
LOW MORALE HIGH PAY = YES
-v-
LOW MORALE LOW PAY = NO
It's not that I take home a fantastic paycheck but it is sufficient to provide me a comfortable life. So ... my dear friends ... I would appreciate some enlightenment ... what do you think I should do?
QUIT or STAY?
Tough one. I would say stay until you can find something else more to your liking. Keep visualizing exactly how you will FEEL in the job of your choice. Keeping the parameters open allows all different kinds of jobs to be a possiblility. But by visualizing how you feel - you'll attract the one that you will love being at.